Where Could I Go?

This tree, keeper of seasons,
gives itself away piece by piece.

For years I’ve watched it—
through my window, the way it bends,
its arms twisting, giving up—
what it cannot keep,
falling to feed on itself.

I want to fall like that—
to break, to rot—what confidence!
Where could I go?
To know I am—
alive when there is nothing left.

—Augustus